In early 2016 at the age of 29, I set out on a journey to discover the truth. At that time in my life, I looked around this world and saw the laundry list of Christian denominations with each of them having different beliefs: Roman Catholics, Baptists, Methodists, Pentecostals, Presbyterians, Episcopalians, Non-Denominationalists, Churches of God, Churches of Christ, Lutherans, and the list went on and on. From my understanding, each of these denominations under the single umbrella of Christianity claimed to hold the truth. How could I ever know for sure which one was true? My religious upbringing as a child was not straight-forward. I was not raised up entirely in a single denomination, and because of this mixture I was even further confused. It was at this time in my life that I set out determined to uncover the truth and solidify my religious beliefs once and for all. My eternity depended on it!
My earliest memories in church are of two churches: Church of God and Roman Catholicism. My maternal grandmother was a member of a Church of God church, while my father was a lifelong Roman Catholic. I remember my grandmother taking me to church on occasion, as well as my father taking me to Catholic mass. I surely noticed the difference in worship styles between the two, but as a young boy I never understood or questioned the differences. For the most part, religion was not a big part of my upbringing. Rather, it was an occasional experience.
In August of 1997 at the age of 11, my parents enrolled me in a Catholic junior high school. I spent three years there in grades six through eight, and it was also there that I officially became a Roman Catholic. Having never been through any Catholic religious education before in my life, I was behind my other classmates in the sense that they had already had their first communion, first confession, etc. So at the outset of my enrollment at the school, I began meeting regularly with the Assistant Principal, a nun, who helped get me caught up in learning the basics of Roman Catholicism. I remember she gave me a Catholic educational book that helped me learn the basics of the Catholic mass, the Eucharist, confession, etc. These classes probably lasted a number of weeks, and at the conclusion of my sessions with her I made my first confession and first communion. I also began serving in the church as an altar boy.
My service in the Catholic church came to an end when I graduated from junior high school and moved across town to a non-Catholic public high school. During these years, I still considered myself Catholic and would attend mass on occasion. My involvement with the Catholic church, or any church for that matter, trickled away as I left home for college.
The years of my life between college in 2007 and the beginning of my truth-seeking journey in 2016 were very non-religious. Yes, I believed in God. Yes, I believed in Jesus Christ. Yes, I believed in the Bible although I had never read or studied it. But even knowing those truths, religion was not a part of my life. When I married my wife in 2012, I was asked by her pastor if I was “saved.” I told him I was, as I had prayed a prayer during my years in high school. I believed I was indeed “saved” because I surely believed in Jesus Christ. But as far as knowing doctrine, Scripture, or any teachings in the Bible, I was very ignorant. Even for the first few years of our marriage, I continued to believe that I didn’t have anything to worry about when it came to eternity. Sure I had my doubts, but doesn’t everyone doubt? This time of confusion for me was not helped by the fact that my wife and her family were Southern Baptists, while the majority of my family were devout Catholics. As an adult I knew there were distinct differences between Roman Catholicism and Protestant churches, but we all believe in Jesus Christ right? I figured it’s just all the same.
So in early 2016, I set out to determine the truth for myself. I had this nagging in my inner-self to figure out this “religion thing.” My entire life had been a wishy-washy see-saw of religious beliefs, and I knew I had to satisfy this internal nagging to know the truth. So, I began to ask questions.
Why do Roman Catholics believe what they believe? Why do Protestants believe what they believe? Where does everyone get their beliefs from? I knew for me to find the truth, I would have to have a “control” in this “experiment.” What could I use as a baseline? What could I use that I knew would be absolute truth? The answer I knew was simple: the Bible. I knew that the Bible was God’s written Word. I knew that all truth would agree with Scripture, and anything that’s not true would contradict Scripture. So with my “control” in hand, I began.
I got saved on April 6, 2016, a short time after my journey started. I will never forget that day, as the way the Lord has moved in my life from then on has been an undeniable experience. I was driving home from out-of-town work training while listening to a sermon on YouTube. As I was listening to the preacher’s message about hell, its reality, and the need for salvation, I began to cry uncontrollably. For the first time in my life, I realized how dead in trespasses and sin I truly was. Of course I had always had a head knowledge of Jesus Christ my entire life, but I had never trusted in Him alone with my heart. That day has long since lived in my memory, and my life has not been the same since.
My finding of true, saving faith was followed by the Lord calling me into the ministry. I first didn’t know what aspect of ministry work He wanted me to do, but I immediately heeded His call and enrolled in the seminary. As time has gone by, it has become quite clear to me that He has called me into the field of apologetics. I have had an insatiable craving for reading and learning the Scripture, and for studying various doctrines and teachings of the Bible.
As of the writing of this testimony, it has been 1 1/2 years since I began my truth-seeking journey. I have poured countless hours into reading, researching, and studying the Bible and various church doctrine. This website is the fruit of that work. I pray it will be a blessing to all who read it.
May the grace and love of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ be with you all.